Melatonin

I just administered to myself the recommended dosage of liquid melatonin.
the things is my clock is so "backwards" (at least I'm told to think it as such), and has been this way for my entire life.
I'm a night person, weather I like it or not, living in a "morning persons" world.
There's something that happens to me at the witching hour.  creativity flows, energy levels rise, and my productivity grows. I have never written a song during the day, nor have I started and completed a drawing or painting, or successfully researched for a term paper, nor written a letter to an estranged friend during the light of day. these things in life have all been reserved for the time after the day,  or the time before the day,  depending on how I'm viewing things in the moment. but the reality as always, hits like a blunt object to the head,  that I, we, we all live in this "nine to five" morning persons world. Our peak hours of production are expected to be between 10am and 3pm generally. I cant remember the last time that I felt fully awake, fully rested, fully present, or fully right,  before 2pm. This is somewhat embarrassing,  as it always has been. Why embarrassing? have I been programmed to feel less adequate because of my inability to give in to the sandman at relatively the same time of evening as most of this society? Regardless, I DO feel this way, theres a voice from somewhere that tells me so.  What to do then, about the fact that the beautiful songs, or pieces of art, or reckonings in the form of words, or amounts of knowledge gained while studying, or rekindled friendships around late night fires etc etc etc,  have ALL been accomplished while this "nine to five" society sleeps and sleeps,  even for eight hours at a time maybe.  It must be wrong?  that these occurrences happen after the regulated "bed-time" of our world? Is there another way? I will spend the rest of my life searching I guess, Until then,  new experiment,  with Melatonin.  this is my first time using this type of "medication".

It's 9:14pm, asleep by 10:00pm maybe?  ...it's been years.